​It is only natural to question one’s own sanity when making major life changes.
 
It is only natural to want to fill up an entire journal page with the words:
 
WHAT HAVE I DONE? WHAT HAVE I DONE? WHAT HAVE I DONE? WHAT HAVE I DONE? WHAT HAVE I DONE? WHAT HAVE I DONE? WHAT HAVE I DONE? WHAT HAVE I DONE? WHAT HAVE I DONE? WHAT HAVE I DONE? WHAT HAVE I DONE? WHAT HAVE I DONE? WHAT HAVE I DONE? WHAT HAVE I DONE?
 
It is only natural to wonder ‘WHAT WAS I THINKING? AM I NUTS?’ when making a radical departure from the previous status quo. It is only natural that major life changes bring with them a certain amount of stress and second guessing.
 
All of this is only natural. But when one makes a choice, a concerted, well designed choice to change one’s life, to shake things up, for better or for worse, it does make the process of the actual change and accompanying stress whole lot easier to manage.
 
I’m not one to stay stuck in the sameness of things. Mostly. I don’t hang on to things when it’s time to let go. Mostly. I clean out my closet regularly and I donate household items I haven’t used for a time or that are no longer useful for my life now. I’m not a hoarder. I’m not a hanger-on-er. I don’t often become complacent, at least not for long.
 
But sometimes, I feel that life is no longer moving in the direction I want it to. We grow, we change, we evolve. As human beings living and learning, we grow into someone else and our life should reflect that. The external should change to match what’s going on inside.
 
Well, the time has come in my life for some radical change. We’ve spent the last year – yes, the entire last year preparing for this. My partner, Robert and I purchased an RV, did a light refurbish, readied our home to become a vacation rental property and, at the end of 2019 moved out of our home and into our RV (who we’ve named Stella) full time. 2020 will be about laying foundations for our new way of life. And even though RV life has officially begun, we’re still preparing for the road ahead.
 
Here we are with the finality of it sinking in, one foot in the old world and the other foot not quite travel ready. We’re sitting on the bridge between our old paradigm and our new life. It’s still really worky, somewhat uncomfortable and without the fun of seeing new places. We’re tired, exhausted really, and in a state of overwhelm. And with much to do before we ride.
 
Although it’s totally natural to experience these thoughts of ‘What have I done?’ and to feel stressed out and overwhelmed, I know what we’re doing is exactly right. It’s exactly the right thing. It’s exactly the right time. This was not a rash decision. A lot of time and energy, a lot of thought and preparation went into this.
 
We will learn, we will grow, we will adapt. And we will get the water heater working! But most importantly, we will have fun and enjoy the journey. Three cheers to our adventure!!! 😊

​We’re born knowing who we are, but in so many cases we quickly learn to forget in order to conform, fit in and survive.
 
As we go through life, we remember in varying degrees at different stages but we often choose not to go there. Instead we choose to believe what we’ve been taught and take it as gospel on blind faith. It’s an easier option.
 
Or we have a really good grasp of who we are but we hide our authentic selves, hide out in order to feel safe. Once again, it can seem like the easier choice.
 
Some will wear masks and talk a good game when their aim is really manipulation. They’ve figured out how to work the system to get what they want.
 
But I have noticed that as people get older they tend to become more of who they truly are. For better or worse, being inauthentic is exhausting.

How do you heal and sooth the savage beast?
With Love.
How do you heal and sooth the dark parts and the recesses of the self?
With Love.
How do you heal and release hatred?
With Love.
How do you heal and release resentment?
With Love.
How do you forgive?
By loving yourself enough to release the hate and resentment.

​How do you become the best version of yourself?
By meeting yourself exactly where you are and loving and accepting yourself exactly as you are. By deciding once and for all that you are worthy and deserving of love and loving yourself unconditionally. You will then begin to make different, more loving choices. Your interactions with others will start to come from that place of love inside of you. When you love yourself, really love yourself, you become free to love others without conditions.

And the World Becomes a Better Place Just by You Being In It.

​There are certain instances in which we don’t move forward with something or bring it to fruition because we feel it’s not perfect. Whatever it might be, we keep refining and revising, changing it around and mulling it over; which then devolves into procrastination and postponement and we don’t finish it because it never seems ‘perfect’. We second guess ourselves. We give up. What’s the use? It’s not perfect.
 
News Flash: Perfection is Subjective. Things are rarely ever truly perfect.

​A paradigm shift is a fundamental change. It is a shift in consciousness, a shift in the understanding and belief of what is possible. It is the changes that subsequently manifest in our lives and in our reality from the shift in consciousness. We see things in a different light and our lives and our reality changes because of it.
 
We create and recreate ourselves many times throughout our lifetime, for better or for worse. From childhood to adulthood, to not change, to not make these big shifts is tantamount to stagnation and a sort of death. While, by the same token, making these shifts is also a sort of death, but a death that is liken to the Phoenix rising from the ashes. It is renewal. It is Transformation rather than Stagnation.

​We’re born open; shiny and clean, clear and permeable. We’re curious about everything. It’s a big, beautiful and awe inspiring world we’re in and we’re set on touching, tasting, exploring and experiencing it all. But from the time we’re born we are bombarded with the energy, thoughts and opinions of others…first family, then friends, teachers and society at large…designed to keep us in line, tell us how to feel, what to think and how to behave. In short, make us conform.